Let me start by saying that I stayed within my calorie budget.  However, they weren’t the most nutritious calories; it’s not that they were all bad, they just weren’t all that good. 

My dad told me today that he was ready for hospice care; that it was time for nature to run its course.  In other words, he is finished fighting cancer and ready for his journey to the other side.  This of course made me very sad.

I started my day with steel cut oats, blueberries and soy milk.  I was a guest speaker at a luncheon today so naturally lunch was provided.  I had green salad, sauteed vegetables and 4 small meatballs with marinara sauce.  From that point foward, the calories all went down hill as I tried to comfort myself with food.  In late afternoon I had 2 pieces of dark chocolate.  For dinner I had corn chips and artichoke-jalapeno dip.  And for a late evening dessert I had frozen yogurt.  I don’t understand why we turn to food for comfort.  My food choices didn’t really help me in any way - my sadness is still there, my dad will still die soon, and the sun will rise again tomorrow.  Perhaps now my own personal challenge ought to be learning to forego food when I’m down to see what else I might turn to for comfort. Maybe I’ll learn to meditate or practice yoga.